Helena Guergis says she has nothing to fear. She has done nothing wrong and is anxious to clear her name.
And the embattled former Harper cabinet minister, and MP for Simcoe-Grey, believes that what is happening to her is for a "greater purpose."
"I keep telling myself that," she said in a telephone interview on Friday afternoon. "I don't know what it is at this point, but I do continue to go back to my faith. … It's a challenge and every day I turn around and say, 'What is it going to be tomorrow?' "
Two months after she was forced from the Harper cabinet and expelled from caucus, Ms. Guergis, the former status of women minister, is still asking why.
Neither the Prime Minister nor his office or surrogates have shed any light on why she was treated the way she was, why the RCMP was called in.
"I still feel, though, I am not in a position where I am able to answer to anything to defend myself," she said.
Later, she said, she is "very confident that I am going to be cleared."
For now, however, the 41-year-old MP is on doctor's orders to rest. Last week, she cancelled a scheduled appearance before the Commons government operations committee because of her medical condition.
She hopes to testify at the committee on Wednesday, but has a doctor's appointment. It is an appointment that she needs to attend and one at which she wants her husband to be with her.
"I do need my husband with me right now," she said. "… my health is really what is important to me right now." (She said she does not want to discuss the nature of her condition.)
Her husband is Rahim Jaffer, the former Alberta Conservative MP who was defeated in the 2008 election. Allegations against him involving questionable lobbying for his new company have led to their troubles.
Still, she stands by him. She believes that he will be able to clear up any questions or issues when he again testifies before the committee. He was also to appear last week, but asked for an extension.
"Rahim is Rahim," she said. "He's got a good heart and got a good sense of humour. There is no doubt even since having lost … for him it's been a difficult challenge … but the two of us are really strong, we're doing well together and we're just there for each other."
The couple "really want this done" before the House rises for the summer recess.
"We just want to be able to tell our stories and put it behind us," she said. "I don't want it lingering on forever."
It has been lingering for some time.
Last April, Prime Minister Stephen Harper telephoned Ms. Guergis while she and her husband were on a holiday - this, after salacious allegations in the media about Mr. Jaffer, his business dealings and some of his associates.
"He [the Prime Minister]said, 'I am removing you from caucus.' That he was aware of serious criminal allegations," she recalled. "I was crying. I couldn't believe what was happening and how things had got to that point."
The hardest thing during her whole ordeal, she said, was "listening to the Prime Minister say those things to me on the phone."
Ms. Guergis may have cried then, but she is made of strong stuff. Last week, she stood in the Commons, demanding the Prime Minister table in the House the letter detailing the allegations against her that led him to call in the police.
That took chutzpah. But she said that she couldn't do it without her strong faith - she is a Christian - and the support of her family, her constituents and even former caucus colleagues.
She has not spoken to the Prime Minister since their telephone call and does not expect to, especially given that she had only four face-to-face conversations with him in the six years she served in his caucus.
"Unfortunately, I believe he has some people around him who have made some really big mistakes, who have not been serving him well in any way at all."
And she is not finished with politics. She said she has much more to offer.
A staunch Conservative, Ms. Guergis said: "Should I not be returned to my [political]family, I will run as an independent."